-blank. void. emptiness -
entangled in dis web of so many issues & pple unknowingly, unwillingly. dere jus seems no escape for me. at a complete lost of wad to do wad not to do or how to feel.

alwaies wonder why tings turn out to be d way dey r. is it d pple envt me myself or simply a combination of all at a certain time, certain place.. find e frequent questionin of myself scary. livin in self doubt.. dis shldnt be d case rite. wadeva it may be, i shld at least be comfortable in who i m n doin wad i believe in. sad to sae bt i m slowly losin myself.. dere's nowhere to turn to to find solitude and comfort for d soul.. no one seems to be able to understand anyting. onlookers r so wrong mans. given a chance dey will nv wan to be in my situation..

why cant everyting jus stop. why cant we return to our childhood times where tings were much more innocent and pure? e adult world is full of schemes n traps bt all of us r pushed into it heain left wif no choice.. is it possible for us to tink simply, acceptin wad comes as genuine w/o haein to doubt anyting dat comes along wif d action? impossible i shld sae. dere's alwaies trouble wheneva dere is pple ard. inevitable fact of life.

all tings happen for a reason. i hope tings will clear soon n i will be able to see why dey happen. may d sun shine thru all dose dark clouds hoverin above my head at d present moment real soon.

many frens dere may be bt who r those who will stay to shelter u from d bad weather dat come? mre frequent den nv, pple r only dere to share ur happie moments only. dere lies at least some comfort in noein dat dere r pple out dere who sincerely care(i hope) n it reallie touches my heart to noe dat somewhere in d sea of pple, dere is one or two for me to lean on at all times.