well on a happier note, i shld be gettin my pay real soon cos it's gonna be e end of d mth!! hope my pay dis time round will be much more n nt miserable like last 2 mths...

aniwae here's d pic of me n bins durin d nus n smu openhse



had a gd time out on sat wif ah-soh gang. bt d sad ting was we didnt manage to catch any shows =((



greedy us wif nice fd!



we r beautiful n so is everyone *beams

i'm jus an unlucky chap who always happens to be in someone's way wheneva dey r in a bad mood.
result: yings=an item for pple to vent their frustration on.

life is UNFAIR
i dun wan it dis way
bt do i hae a choice?

thot bout alot of tings last nite b4 fallin aslp.
my life so far, d changes tat hae taken place to me along d growin up process, pple who hae participated in my life..
i hafta admit tat compared to many other pple, life has been smooth sailin for me. actualli too smooth sailin for my likin. i dun wanna hafta experience a real failure only when i enter e society to work cos by den i fear tat i'll be too used to everyting goin d way i wan dem to to hae any courage to face any failures.

my future.
wad do i reallie wanna be?
my aspirations? nothin. up to dis stage i still do nt hae d slightest idea wad i wanna do for d rest of my life. bt i do noe tat i'm a mre pple person who cant stand bein stuck in d office d whole dae. ok great help man.

perhaps nw i can sae i wan to be a housewife n saty at home to look after my kids after marriage n stuff. well tings may change after grad n when i enter society to work. i turn out to be a career woman who wishes to climb up the corporate ladder? may nt even want to hae children. dere r a million n one possibilties. no one can tell for sure wad's gonna happen 10 yrs down d road..


i want to be STRONG.
strong enuf to stand alone on my own n nt allow anyone's actions or words to put me down.

my beloved JUDY! *loves


my darlin LYNETTE n SAKAI in pic 2 n 3 respectively =)




well these 3 r d nicer pple to me at work n those closer to me apart frm my 'korkor' whose pic i haent gotten my hands on YET.hahas

sat: i was stranded at pasir ris train station all thnx to my beloved sis. long story.. sigh. headed to city hall where i was supposed to meet bins. was ultra early n wandered ard by myself. okies den i realised tat my white bag was stained red! omg. n d worst ting is it cant be removed! argh. it's a rather new bag n a gift frm shadyes for my bdae. stupid red top la. attended smu n nus openhses. decided tat smu wasnt my cup of tea. nus seems fun bt we were pestered by so many pple to sign up for their freshmen camps. some of d camps look nice thou. oya n pple thot we were frm acjc. alrite is tat meant to be a compliment or wad? when we sae we were frm hc pple were like 'wah'. well dun we look intellectual enuf? bleahs. to end d dae i took a freakin LONG bus journey frm clementi all d way to hougang which took me 2hrs! poor ass of mine =( only fun ting of d dae: enjoyed d dae out wif darlin bins. did so many stupid stuff (as usual). hahas.

sun: same place agn. pasir ris. groans. took 88 dere n idiotic me forgot to tap my card even when my wallet was in my hand when i alighted. den i stood at d wrong stand waitin for my bus to come(which it apparently didnt). finally found my way to dis vj ger place where i was supposed to gif her tuition for d 1st time. guess wad?!?! she was out for breakfast! stupid agency mixed up d timings. told me 10am bt told dem 2pm. caused me my slp wasted my bus fares n 2plus hrs of travelling for nothin. imagine hw pissed i was. followin tat dey kept callin me at least 5times in tat dae to ask me when will be my nxt tuition wif d ger (dey r anxious to collect their 'recommendation fees'.) dey even made me fake tat i was livin in pasir ris so tat d mum wun noe i travelled so much due to the agency's mistake. wad an ass man. wtf!

mon: sent an impt mail out wif insufficient postage. didnt include my return address somemore. so d other party cant receive it n i wun get my mail back. argh! hw careless can i get. why didnt it occur to me when i am in charge of sendin out all d mails frm office! pissed wif myself. i reallie rock la. paper cuts everywhere. some even bleeded somemore. pple keep pilin work on me, my sis kept irritatin n annoyin me, everyting is so rush... i need mre time in my life!! to complete all my stuff, to meet up wif all my darls...

i wanna scream!!
d lady who took over my pc is nt usin it at all la.shits.take away frm me den put dere for show only.she dun even switch it on everydae can.she like usin another pc at another seat everytime.argh!den why mux kope frm me?
i wan my pc back!! ROARS

n d stupid guy who changed my pc away rocks big time man.he's foreva takin leave, nt seen at work every other dae bt still manages to become a supervisor after less den half a yr n draws a high salary of 5plus k a mth!wah so shuang rite.if can i oso wan man.

he betta return me back my pc...
argh!tings at work is makin a turn for d worse...

todae's judy last dae.it was a half dae somemore.sigh 2nd time durin my admin job tat my close fens/colleagues is leavin =( i dun wan!cried buckets as i was reallie sad n relunctant to see judy go.bt i noe it's for her future's sake..

company had bento set takeaway for lunch as a form of farewell for her n she bought beard papa for our desserts.so sweet of her.she even gt me a small gift.touched.our lunch dragged frm an hr to an hr half.all of us jus sat in d rm talkin n jus haein fun!

hope we'll be able to keep in contact man.she has reallie guided me alot n provided me wif many helpful advice.will definitely miss her!!

on a hopeful note i may be able to get my comp back at d end of e mth.it'll be either back to my old comp (my beloved one) or to no comp at all or dere will nt be any change. prays for d former man.

shall post all d pics soon..

msians vs sporeans.
didnt realise till at work bt apparently dere's a big diff in terms of their workin style.

msians.
dey r mre obedient, mre 'mild' or weaker as the pple in office put it. result: dey make much betta subordinates cos dey follow wad's bein said to dem. sae 1 n dey'll seldom if nt nv go against ur word. if dey meet wif any unhappiness dey will most prob jus swallow it down n hae d 'nvm, it's alrite.' attitude.

on the other hang, sporeans will stand up for wad dey feel is right even if it's against wad their boss sae. dey r mre stubborn or stronger in a way. thus we r harder to control as we r sorta mre rebellious. we usually wun resign workin under someone mre inferior den us n we'll voice our unhapiness if any shld arise.

(disclaimer: i'm jus makin a generalisation. nt saein tat all msians n sporeans r like tat. n seriously no offences intended.)

yups yups. all bosses sure like to take full control. well maybe tat explains why d 3 new staff in my office r all msians! *winks

n i'm so supa dupa ultra pissed!my win 2003 was changed to a win 98 dis mornin.so slow n d keyboard is so nosiy!d lang is in jap somemre n dere's n way to change it to eng.argh!!i foresee tat when 2 mre new staff come in my pc will be completely taken over n life at work will sux even even mre.dun even wanna tink bout it...groans

okae maybe i didnt do tat well for a's.bt nonetheless my parents r still proud of me.*grins.had a small scale celebration on sat.hahas i gotta decide wad was for dinner.well as d greedy yings u all all noe i wanted to go for buffet.settled for sakura at downtown east as we figured tat e line wld probably be too crowded on a weekend nite.fd was qt nice n i had a great time!took lotsa pics n stuff.i'm a happie kid.lalalas

oya n my mum rocks la.*poof.off she went on sun on holidae abandonin all of us in sg.will only be back on wed/thurs.argh!i'm sick of takeawaes n hafta do hsehold chores somemre =( bt i tink my sis is mre pitiful den me haein mre to do.okae life w/o mum sux...


sakura downtown east

opps pple here r some reallie outdated pics. *blushes.
from past to d most current


look at bins new hairstyle! big change man



dae out wif my gers. whole of shaydes =)



fel bins n our belated vdae date at ambush!! jus love my darls to bits =)



my 2nd uncle's 60th burfdae bash. look at all d happie face =))


ntu openhse at bugis whre i met so many sn n rosyth frens. so excitin! 1st n last pic: wif my beloved kaini =)


b4 release of results. 1st 2 pics bins at slpover at my hse!

ji de:shi jie bu hui wei ni de yi si yi hao de nan guo er you ren he de gai bian.feng hui ji xu chui, de qiu hui ji xu zhuan.dan wo yi ran hui zai zhe pei zhe ni.jia you ba!

glad tat most of my frens hae gotten over d truama n back to their normal self agn.wad's over is over.no pt cryin over spilt milk. hahas we shall be happie pple n embark on d nxt phase of our lifes!!

stayover at my place. me n bins went crazee. hahas disturbed my sis n caused he her slp. well we cldnt slp wad! so sad we cldnt watch e much awaited full hse cos stupid us didnt realise tat e 1st disc bt nt e others were spoilt. nvm we hae alr gotten another date to watch. hees. shall post all d long overdue pics soon. be patient pple! hahas

aniwae overslept n was late for work todae. reallie gettin tired very easily nowadaes. i need my beauty slp! hahas. bt yay d weekends r finally here agn =)

disappointed. bt life still gotta go on.

yings quit broodin over it!! stop tinkin of wad ifs. no amt of self reproach nw can change anyting. wallowin in self depression will only make u feel worse. we all noe we hae done our best. wadeva we do or sae at dis pt of time is of no use. everyting is alr fixed. our results will remain d way dey r. i shld feel contented! i shld!! may feel tat i deserve betta grades bt tings hae a reason for happenin tat way. be happie tat u didnt fall too short of ur own expectations ger.

darlins no matter wad our grades r we still hae a bright future ahead. our world is still colourful =) dis small setback will nt get us down. cheer up! u noe i love u all n i'm sure u love me too (gd grades or nt).

p.s: please shut ur trap. i dun need u breathin down my neck wif ur nonsense bout how great u did or how u cld hae done betta. dat's ur own business non of mine. i dun need u remindin me how inferior i'm or how u hae caught up to me. too bad u r nt succeedin in gettin me down