shits i realised dat i reallie cant stay in my rm!

my rm is a disaster mans. cannot study only play sleep eat online at hall. i mux exercise some self control!! yings DETERMINATION kaes. wasted like 5hrs slackin ard in hall doin dunoe wad ting! argh. i'm so not self disciplined mans. shall seek shelter outside for muggin nxt wk...

n my appetite got so much bigger. nv seem to make my stomach feel satisifed n i alr put on like 3kg? oh wells fats r not showin jus yet cos chengxi jus commented i lost weight. lol. bt soon i guess. i mux ctrl my mouth too!

yings is becomin a eatin and sleepin monster =((

HAPPIE BURFDAE to our SIA guy, mr aly! *applauds.

fri:
time out wif my sn clique. it has been ages since i last saw all of dem n it was nat's bdae celebration. had qt a lot of fun wif dis bunch of gers & i saw so many pple at vivo! d whole world is like dere can. met lings dis much missed babe of mine n caught up qt abit. supposed to meet her on sat bt both of us overslept!(thou i woke up much ltr) so sorrie dear. dinner soon kaes. loves.

some pics for d dae! =))




my sn clique!

sun:
breakfast n a nice gossipin session wif my darlin sis! been ages since i last had a heart to heart talk wif it. reallie enjoyed it. i reallie appreciate u dear!

wkends were spent sleepin n spendin time wif some of my close ones (time i did so too). had been neglectin dem due to other committments bt glad i took time off for dem =))

i love all my frens!

i feel so mean to all my close frens.
hae been too tired n exhausted frm everyting recently...
serious lack of sleep.
i wanna jus surrender n gif up totally.
sorrie pple for not contributin as much as i shld be. thnks for bein so understandin towards me. i'll seriously make it up to u all soon.

a big big THANK YOU to all of u. it reallie means alot to me. i feel so lucky and fortunate to hae so many nice frens esp meng gene sarah lins sean kenneth chris co n so much more. am so blessed and loved.

yings feels like a big meanie.
i hate myself.
hw i wish dere was 48hrs in a dae.

mugged for 3daes in a row for stupid hrm wif lins till late. she squatted at my place n squeezed wif me on my bed la! argh. lol

super relieved when it was over. to hell wif it mans. it's only an elective bt so heavy! spent like so much time on it. stupid us to choose dis elective mans. why did no one warn me!!!

i hae been so busy!! cldnt even find time to blog for qt some time. why is time runnin away frm me!! screams.

it seems as thou i no longer hae control over many tings in my life. dis is jus so desperatin... tryin to find back myself, my place in sch n everyting. dere is only so much i can do. i wan to do more for my closed one but there is jus so much i can do! haent even spoken to my parents for several wks. bins n fel came look for me ydae n i cldnt even join dem. i'm so sorrie for neglectin u all esp to shadyes n sarah. i'll find time i promise. but only suspect dat tings will get worse at d end of d mth when d telecommunication fair starts. hand ups, waves a white flag. can i jus surrender n gif up..

okie i shldnt complain n whine anymore, ltr pple sae i bimbotic agn.. lol.

sun.
x-physique! had qt alot of fun movin ard n takin fotos. ehs mine got standard wan kaes keep saein nt nice hor. nxt time u take urself la. bleahs. n d best part was i met wif fel! caught up qt abit wf her. beams

proj proj n mre proj.
accts report due nxt mon n we r nt settled yet. d past 2 meetings aint too effective or shld i sae ineffective at all. changed companies like twice n so many hiccups nw n dere. hope tings will look good when d whole report is out. *crosses finger n pray hard. biz law presentation nxt wk n we alr sepnt d whole dae on it. undone too duh rite. tort sucks mans..

wed.
rushed 2 proj discussions. sorrie synergy i had to leave early for accts n dental, cldnt be of much help. wasted 3hrs plus travellin to n fro jus to hae my stupid braces tightened. missed hrm n i heard dat dere's a quiz nxt wed agn. argh. sing n strum followed by mambo. last min ting la n it was d x-physique com who dragged me down lor bt i had fun. bad ting was i only survived on 2hrs of sleep for thurs..

thurs.
it was super bad luck can. i didnt save my biz law n accts proj preparation! had to redo everyting frm scratch. tell me how stupid can i get mans. dun even noe hw i can close without savin. i hate my own stupidness.. biz law d whole dae. yawns.
universe bbq. bonded qt abit to d pple n my co! lol. it was an enjoyable session i mux sae. bt kana ponded n my arm got scratched by the side of the pond. groans. n hor hall7 sucks. no water to bath! ended up at hall1. thnks co for pickin me up n for d toilet. paiseh wet d seat of ur van. hope u haent start regrettin for choosin me. lol. n ntu sucks. network down cant even research for my accts. uluified mans.
aniwae thnks kian n dian. it's ok i'm alrite. see la dun wan come save me lor. disappointed lehs. sobs

fri.
3hrs of sleep n up i'm. freezin to death n starvin at fal waitin for my grpmates to come. it has been like an hr n no sight of dem yet. like woww. tink we can jus die tog for accts mans. tired n wif a sore arm. some stunt pulled on me once agn. irritated like nobody buisness bt i noe dere's no pt in gettin mad. alr warned about dis kinda tings long before. thnk god no 2nd time!

hangin onto dat one fine line...