i was reallie considerin if i shld work 2 mre weeks b4 i leave for hk n china (definitely cos of d high pay)..
pondered alot. money or freedom?!?
bt nw no mre headache over d matter

those f*ckin idiots can go die on their own.
eat shit or wadeva
i dun even gif dem a damn

screw it
all of u get lost! n outta my life dis moment!!

pissed till i almost cried.
i reallie had ENUF of u bitches

alrite alrite here goes. pple hae been askin me to update my blog n some hae even commented dat my blog is full of rants n stuff.
okies someting diff for nw.

happie times =))


me n my sis dae out! shoppin n piggin out. love her to bits


me n fel fel dinner date. nice of her to come town esp to meet her dear yings. *beams


2 dates in a week wif bins. dinner at marche at one time & ktv, shoppin trip on d other



most recent outin wif shadyes. FUNx3

ok i promise i wun grumble in dis entry bt sorrie bear wif me for awhile yea. i'm reallie pissed over 2 matters!
yings is a stupid ger who nv learn her lessons. keep gettin herself into deep shit for goodness noe why! dear frens out dere pls constantly remind her of d right tings to do else she brings herself to self destruction =(( n another ting she cant get her priority right. she keeps tinkin dat she has everyting under ctrl bt dat's nt d case. she cancel off someting for another den realise dat in d end she ends up wif nthg! brilliant man ger. so much opp cost..
nvm pple jus ignore me i'm talkin nonsense

dere's nthg to regret bout turnin down an admin job dat promises 10 bucks per hr. yes d pay is attractive n all bt oh wells it cant stop me frm wantin to quit.

all these hyprocites. u can jolly do all my work if u tink it's so freakin easy. go ahead man. experience it for urself n u'll noe. tink it's all chicken feet n u can do it closin one eye? boy u r so wrong. nvm i'm sure u r all talented pple who can manage yea. prey on someone else n push all d work to her. i pity d nxt victim totally. bt i can only sae sorrie to her, i wan it outta here asap! no mre irritatin double faced pple in my sight!

some pple r nice n all bt when it comes to work, dey can reallie get on my nerves! slow n everyting. i can tolerate it at times bt when tings r rushin n everyone is so stressed up n stuff, i wish i was able to just scream at u to fasten ur pace! argh

nvm yings. relax cos all will end real soon! i am so gonna love life in 10daes time =))

i'm fumin mad!
how can a guy eva be so petty, narrow minded n bear personal grudges at work?!?
i hae freakin done nthg wrong n definitely do nt deserve all these.
f*.
u r an idiot.

cheapo man.
i hae finally seen ur true colours.
gd for nthg. only noe how to abuse power.
wad an ass.

i wan nthg to do wif u
n relax i'll be outta ur sight even b4 u realise it.

d workplace is a mre den jus horrible place to be in
increasin complexity as we slowly grow up.
who can we reallie depend on?

i'm both pissed and upset! nw dat i hae agreed to stay in d company till july thru word of mouth, dey r switchin me to another department!! d reason why i'm stayin is becos my direct supervisor who is oso d director is qt nice to me. she tries to include me in d company's stuff n oso brought me out to dinner on several occasion. d recent one was at M Hotel. it was sorta like a department dinner wif judy n lynette along =)) dinin wif her is alwaies a fun experience. we get to enjoy high class jap cuisine n in addition, special treatment frm d resturant cos she's vip dere. hees. she's like some sorta a mum to me. sigh bt nw i hafta be stuck wif someone whom i hae some kinda clash wif. argh! sucky n irritain guy. shits. dunoe hw i'll survive d rest of my time here. hope he wun make tings difficult for me man.

when d director talked to me earlier on dis morn abt d change, we both cried. i was sad to hafta leave her charge n she was sad too to see me go. argh! she tried to keep me bt it was her word against dat irritatin guy n d tokyo ceo word. oh wells, nthg much we can do bout it. aniwae it was freakin embarrassin la. i'm like some kinda immature ger. bleahs. oya n i had a talk wif d ceo frm head office tokyo too. he asked to meet me. so scary mans. on his dis visit he didnt even see all d staff here let alone me a small puny part timer!! he said dat i cld tell him anyting i wish bt i was wary. didnt noe if i was REALLIE able to speak to him bout everyting in d office. decided against it in d end. opps. missed it n i guess no mre opportunties for me to tell on dat stupid guy alr. nvm none of my prob aniwae.

michael n akao-san r guilty towards me for d change. dey kept apologizin. bt i understand it's nt their fault. dey did try to keep me under dem thou it was of no use. well dey r nice pple n i'll continue to be on gd terms wif dem regardles sof which dept i'm under

*GROANS. d workin world suck. i dunoe wanna be involved in anyting. freaks. i wish to be back in sch nw!

fcuk man. wad a dae.

work sucks like nuts todae. thousand and one tings to be done. d workload is gettin heavier n heavier n soon u wun see yings at all. she has alr drowned n disappear. stressed. made 2 mistakes todae. first time in my 3plus mths at d company dat i commited a blunder. oted like for 2 nites in my attempt to finish up d work bt to no avail. dis time round my pile is reallie dat much. d rate at which work is stacked onto my desk is twice dat of me clearin dem even thou i'm alr considered fast. freaks. dere's no one to help me out. takin up far too much responsibilites n work dat a part timer shld be doin. i shld emphasis dat i'm only a PART TIMER! help me!

nvm i'm jus gonna try my best to finish up as much as i can. nt a quitter. hafta take up some responsibility for wad i am doin. howeva sorrie no ot todae. needa take a break n relax. bt for nw i'm jus goin to concentrate on d work at hand n those awaitin me. jiayou yings! wish me luck pple dat i can survive dis long n hectic week in one piece.

oya n dat tuition agency is disgustin. dey r only concerned bout d comission dey r gettin n make empty promises to d parent. tings dat i'm nt even aware of. ask me to fake dis n dat. it's freakin tirin u noe. too bad i'm gonna quit on u. d pay may be high at 30over per hr for a sec4 bt heys like my mum was tellin me i'm nt hard up for money. she dun wanna see me workin so hard. n i noe dat to get dat pay i'll hafta endure much mre. so much of lyin, haein to face a mre den demandin parent n sacrificin many other stuff for tuition.. nah. money is impt bt it's nt everyting n definitely nt on d top of my priority. so dere!

oh wells. so lookin fwd to seein bins ltr! =))
pics recently taken will be up soon. be patient. hahas

greetings to all my lovely darlins out dere. well accordin to bins, todae is sisters dae (goodness noe hw it came abt). hahas

coincidentially my sis decided to drop by n lunch wif me. so nice of her rite bt it was all cos she wanted to go get someting at taka. n she even made me treat her to lunch! nvm yings is a nice ger. oya n dere's a dinner date tonite- wif lovely fel b4 she flies off to korea. so it's gd fd gd fd n mre gd fd todae. had pastamania in my short less-den-an-hr lunch break n probably nydc tonite. gonna turn into a real pig soon n spend all my miserable wage on fd. =(( aniwae d stupid company still dun wanna issue me my pay. drag dae after dae. hmprh!!

oh n i tink it's very obvious whether i'll be goin out after work. everyone asked if i hae a date tonite. yea i do bt it's a ger nt guy! disappointin rite. hees. guess i reallie look awful when i turn up for work everydae. frowns.
nvm i shall blog all d prettie pics for todae up soon!! *beams

*jus some random thots

actu it took me qt some time to truly understand dat i shld nt take tings for granted. sure enuf pple hae been tellin us dat for like a thousand and one time bt when has d message reallie get thru to us?

for me frens reallie make up a very impt part of my life. my sis has alwaies told me dat haein a few gd frens beats haein alot of hi bye frens. dat i agree totally. i'm very glad n lucky in a sense to hae made so many true frens up to dis pt in life. god has been mre den fair to me.

however dere is jus dis much god can do for u, by allowin u d chance to meet n find these special pple. wad goes on frm dere reallie dpds on u urself. i'm filled wif regret to sae dat i haent been treasurin dis special grp of pple. like renhao felyna simin frm rosyth, kaini lins rah frm st nicks...

i used to be jus an acceptor in alot of frenships, simply stayin on d receivin end. in recent yrs i hae tried to take on a mre pro active role in all my frenships. i realised dat it doesnt reallie matter if i'm fequently on d gifin end. i'm doin so cos i treasure the frenship n it matters alot to me. i wanna keep all of u dear frens by my side. if i need to be d one who alwaies suggest outings in order for us to keep in contact, so be it. i reallie dun mind.

every frenship is like a tree in one's own garden. in order for it to grow n blossom, d gardener needs to shower it wif love care n concern. one cant jus expect the tree to survive on its own rite. in d same way we need to maintain every frenship if we wish it to develop into a long lastin one. whether u wan our frenship to wither or bloom it all depends on wad u wanna do bout it, whether u care bout it at all.

frens can enjoy happie times together. bt can mine survive e tough times too? in times of trouble, hw many will actu stand by me to lend a helpin hand n pull me thru?

i'm feelin so tired.
tired of work n tuition, tired of everyting!
i need mre time to myself, wif my frens n family.
sometimes i dun even get enuf time to hae a proper rest.
dere r so many other tings tat i wanna do wif my time.
why r we only given 24 hrs a dae?

tuition hae reallie taken a toll on me.
d p4 ger is incorrigible n d pay is so freakin lil'. worse ting is tat d mum cheat me of d no of times i go. roars.
n d screwed up agency is horrible. dey told me tat d j2 kid is a ger bt strange ting on my first lesson is tat it's actualli a guy! wow u mean one can change sex overnite? technology is SO amazin man.

jus wonderin bout life.
it's so fragile.
saw my uncle at changi general hospital. n to tell u d truth i was scared. he was d fittest n everyting amg all my uncles. yet nw.. appearances can be deceivin. i'm very disturbed to see him dis way n we dun even noe wad's wrong wif his body. he looks restless n needs stabilizers everydae. everyone of us is so worried for him. my grandma my mum n aunts cried upteen times over his conditions.
saw some other patients. oh god i dun wanna imagine wad will happen to me when i grow old n am down wif all d illnesses. wif age, our health will go downhill. i do nt wish to be a burden to my love ones..

haein a spinnin headache.
lookin fwd to when i can take FULL control of my time.
bins, hk n china awaits us =))
n i'll be prayin for my uncle's recovery.