oh my goodness. i cant believe wad happened. i was like readin d jnr's blog(which i haent for qt a long time) n i jus sat in front of d comp screen n tears jus kept flowin down. was readin some of d pple's entries after d posting results were out n stuff. kinda thought back to last yr. images r still vivid in my mind. rmber when meiwei n terence decided to leave. last dae of sch we had dis sorta farewell ting in one of d classroom. cried buckets as it was inevitably sad to see dem leave esp when i was v.close to meimei. didnt wan to let go. kept persuadin her to stay. still miss her up to nw althou we dun keep in contact much. den postin came out n apparently some of us were kicked out. i was alr preparin myself mentally tat it wld be nj or hc. n either way i wld be happie. bt when i saw tat i was posted to nj i jus stared blankly at d screen. d nxt ting i noe i was on my way down to hc. i knew tat i wanted to stay on. waitin for d appeal results was d worse ting. rmbered myself cryin every nite. jus felt empty. went back hc on d first dae of sch to crash n found myself cryin upon seein d class. tink i'm crazy. dunoe why bt reallie liked d class. didnt realise tat until d moment i knew i was goin to lose dem. reallie scared tat i wld be forgotten n only classified as a first 3mth 67er. d class will survive well w/o me. i wun even be missed. wld hae felt all alone n abandoned durin tat period if not for kenneth(my angel). reallie appreciate him for bein dere for me. guess tat one of d happiest ting tat hae eva happened to me wld be receivin d call frm hc saein tat my appeal was successful.

lookin back, reallie miss all those tings we used to do as a class. d frequent class outin, skippin lect n tut together, d gossippin sessions... wonder wad happened since den. d class nw has sorta fallen into pieces wif cliques n couples. a certain grp of pple arent happie wif another grp n stuff. classroom politics. we no longer do tings together like we used to. i dunoe. reallie dun like dis bt guess it jus happened. feel weird n outta place sometimes in class. dun see such prob in other classes thou. reallie wish for everyting to turn out fine. wadeva it is i noe it wld be hard for us to be as close as wad we used to be. maybe i wld be haein a betta life at nj nw. tat i wld nv noe. bt one ting i'm sure is tat i nv hae regretted my choice to appeal back to hc for it's where i hae formed strong bonds n made some reallie fabulous frens.

ps: sorrie pple guess i'm qt emotional nw.